Da BFG's Journal

Falls
I feel like a changed man.
I just got back from Falls Music Festival yesterday for New Years and i had an AWESOME time!!!
I feel so much more relaxed and i have put alot of shit in my life in perspective. It's amazing what a little break from your normal life can do....I think i know myself much more as well...And i can cope with everything so easily.
My sister and Mum were fighting on the night i got back and i was the coolest person in the room. I usually would've gone off at both of them and chucked a hissy fit. But this time was different....I was calm and explained to both of them what the whole fight was about and how silly they both were behaving. They were both just putting fuel on an open flame...
Anywayz, i've decided to write my experiences down...i'll get back to you with em.

Current Mood: accomplished

"Hell is other people."-Jean-Paul Sartre
That about sums it up.
OK, here it is(a beginning of a day by day description):
Today i got up a little late and chucked some food together for lunch. I then decided it was too late to catch the train i normally catch and decided to catch the train which gets me at school roughly 5 mins late. So i ate my breakfast, relaxing to Tom Waits and reading the paper. Nice.
I then caught the train to school, having an interesting train trip to say the least. I got off at school and saw Drew (a friend) who came over and we had a chat on the way to school.
I got to class later then expected and had to go to be signed off as being 'late to class'. I had a fairly low key english lesson, doing the normal comprehension work on 'issues'.
After recess i had a philosophy essay to write about Euthanasia which i had been stressing over since last week. Hopefully i did alright on it.....
I then played some 'foot-square' (think of: hacky sack meets down ball/king, queen, jack & dunce.) with the boys and proceeded to my next class. Media.
after several frustrating minutes of trying to work out what the fuck the matter was with the editing system on Adobe Premiere, i went to get my teacher, Rob. Rob sorted it out for me and my companions and we tried to capture as much footage as possible before the bell went.
I then sorted out a time to meet up with Azza, Coco and Markus to talk about the short film we are going to shoot in the near future.
I walked home to be greeted by a really sick Mum and a stuffy house.
Tonight i'm probably going to do some english h/work and kickback infront of the box if no one's going to be on MSN.
There's a breif description of my day, and to do a more personal one...i shall type within the private walls of this program.
Toodles.

Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: Tom Waits compalation...there's nothing like it.

EXPRESS YOURSELF
"In a haze in a stony haze, i'll be round i'll be loving you always, always...
Here i am and i take my time, here i am and i wait in line always, always...."
The count down begins!!! I can't wait until i go to Coldplay on the 14th!!
I'm a bit dazed out at the mo....I'm not sure if it's being at my Dad's house with his dick of a woman or if it's just "mid-holiday hazy time". Who knows.
I'm going up to a funeral tomoz with me dad. So that will be an interesting experience.
To explain the boredom: I'm a bit bored with life at the mo, i want a good job, better home life and a girl.

Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Ottis Redding! Sitting on the dock of the bay is shweeet!

It be the Sick Season!
This is going to be short an' sweet.
'tis the sick season and i am sick...i have been totally overwhelmed by the amount of school work we will have to do in the coming Unit. I am already stressing out here!
Dang...it's gonna be hard yakka.
Anywayz! Lots of things are going to happen this term for me...the formal is going to happen, me getting a job, work load is going to increase in school, i'm becoming better friends with other people, etc. etc.

Current Mood: sick
Current Music: Jackson 5 all the way!!

On Ed's Front.
What is happening on Ed's Front you ask? Well, i have this week off school and have spent the first part of it at me bro's place in Warrendyte and yesterday i went ot school to try to finish my studio art off. Today i am wanting to go hang out with me da, or maybe just catch up with Dave and get the goss which i've missed out on at viewbank. It really depends on what Dad's doing.
I want to see tonnes and tonnes of movies though, that's my goal before i go back to school on montag.
When i went to school yesterday, Mark told me that he's POSTPONING "the mechanicals" play in theatre studies....i'm sooooo cut! I've pretty much memorised all my lines now and i'm actually looking forward to performing it! And now it's been delayed...grrrr...
Anywayz! I still need a job badly!! REALLY BADLY!
Once i get a job, i can save up my money for either a car or my trip overseas....and i can get a gf!!! So i can actually afford a gf atleast...
I just need a job!

Current Mood: awake
Current Music: Beauna Vista Social Club

Phew!!!
It's the end of the first Unit and the time for supreme relaxation!!
The last couple of days at school was insane! I stayed late at school to finish off my media assessments which was extremely tedious and frustrating....
But that's all done with!! Hallelujah! I only have to do some English h/work, Studio Art, and memorise my lines.
But i have this week off and then i have to go back for one week...then i have two weeks of holidays which i'm looking forward to!
So that's how it is at the moment...

PS. I really shouldn't have knocked back the invite from some of the Swinburnians....i feel bad now and my socialness isn't really getting any better as a rersult of saying "no" to all these invites....my bad.

Current Mood: blank
Current Music: Jimmy James' Piping Hot Xmas CD

And in the end..
Writing in livejournal is very different to handwriting in your own diary. Towards the end of writing in my last diary i had gotten bored with writing every single day or week...it was becoming tedious. So i took a break. Then i went through a stage in my life where it seemed like i was on heat. I was so horny and i created amazing fantasy worlds for me to lust over....I think every human being does.
Your fantasies are one of the most personal things in your life, so naturally no one talks about them or discusses them. They are little dark secrets that we keep to ourself.
Anywayz! This stage in my life provoked some pretty mesmarising fantasies...and i wrote them down in my diary one day, thinking it might be interesting reading over them one day in the future. But interesting is much too milder a word for my writings...i think they're very inticing for want of a better word.
So i wrote them down in my diary...And i was thinking today about writing some fantasies in my livejournal under private or something....but it feels too weird. Somehow the net feels very unsecure and unprotected. A hacker could hack in and discover my inner most secrets without me even knowing about it. So i agreed to not type any of them down....i think they'll have to belong to my ol' handwriting.
PEACE OUT.

Current Mood: creative
Current Music: Beatle Anthology-oldies but goodies

It's been a long time...
It's been a while since i've written an entry. I've just been checking out the top 100 sexiest women in the world site....I totally don't agree with it. Seriously, who would vote anna kornikova a higher ranking then angelina jolie??? Who in their right mind would do that?? And Natalie Portman at no. 48?!!!
I'm shocked....She's one foxy mumma!
Anywayz, I'm becoming more tired by the day. My sleeping habits are so shonky that i nearly fell asleep on the train coming home from school yesterday. It freaked me out! So i decided to take a nap this arvo, and it's helped a fair bit.
I've seriously gotta catch up with h/work at the moment. I'm at panick stage and i have a philosophy SAC coming up, so i'm shitting myself.
So i've gotta put the pedal to the metal and get shit done!

Current Mood: busy
Current Music: My own voice! lol. Nah, Coldplay to get into it again.

Guilt
I'm feeling a little guilty that i'm not going to one of the Viewbanker's party tonight....but i double booked in the traditional Ed manner. I still feel bad.
And to top it off, NO ONE will go to see Coldplay with me...:( Their one of my fav bands and i'm going to miss out!
I'll probably just go by myself. But i can't beleive NO ONE can go with me! I'm so cut....
I've tried EVERYONE today...in a desperate plea for company. But no.

Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: I want some Strokes...but Johnson 'twill do.

ooooooooo.....don't feel too good.
I was just sent one of the most disturbing emails i've ever come across in my existence as a human being....
It was sent from my newly met Norwegian cousin who doesn't know me too well(and i certainly don't know her!)
The email was about how devastating car crash's are.
It started off with pics of one chick hanging out with her friends and being really happy and beautiful. I picked that it was going to be one of those car accident emails a mile away, but continued thinking that it wouldn't be too bad. I got up to the picture of the totally wrecked car and thought that was the end and scrolled down to get to the bottom to delete.
BUT NO! It wasn't the end......the next photo was of her mangled face. Then her face after 30 operations or whatever. Then her face after 4 years....
I couldn't even handle the first one! let alone the last 3 photos....
I got up from the puter and went to the corner taking deep breaths....(i'm still breathing deeply and feeling a little queezy).
I totally lost my appertite for dinner and became a little sick. I just can't handle things like that.
Whenever i see or am around people with an illness or deformity i can't handle it. I just don't feel comfertable around people like that....i don't mean to sound discriminotory or harsh, but that's how i am. I've tried to change it..but i havn't succeeded.
WELL! One of my weakness' is revealed!
PEACE OUT.

Current Mood: disturbed
Current Music: the Waifs

Back to Swinvalia
SO! It's the end of the holis unfortunately....I just want one more week damn it! :(
I've left all my h/work to the last minute once again. Although i didn't get given too much to do over the holis. The only thing i'm regretting not having done is my photos for media....i need to do some fast!
It'll be good going back to school again. I havn't caught up with any of the Swinburnians over the holis...so i need to get my act together and be a little bit more social.

Anywayz, i'm dying to write a private entry...so, toodaloo.

Current Mood: blank
Current Music: Lemon Jelly

Back in Action
I've just gotten back from the hills... It was an interesting experience. I had to adjust to Daves and his Ma's routine for holidaying, which i wasn't used to.
I normally kick back and enjoy the sun a bit more. Be a bit more lazy and relaxed. Whereas Dave is "go go go!" We were walking here and there, calling in on old friends (Daves ol' friends) and being really social. It was pretty full on for me.
So now that i'm back i'm wanting to hang out with me bro's and get into gear. I need to start memorising my lines for theatre studies, try harder to get a job, etc.
Hoo Har! I need to get cracking!
AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! My mother is shitting me up the wall something chronic!!!! I tell her over 20 times not to do something and she still does it. Over and over again. It's just plain fucking frustrating!!!! I'm not one to complain, but i nearly put my foot through the door just before. I need some outlet for rage FAST! Just give me a punching bag and i'll be happy.....I can feel the build up through my muscles....surging....building up rapidly. Until I feel like putting my fist through the wall!
I don't think it's just Mum who's been slowly aggravating me...i think it's been alot of factors which have contributed over time. Mainly: family probs, friend probs, and other shite which i wont even bother getting into....
Well, ENOUGH with this! I'm off.
Guten Nacht fruendas.

Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: Bit of everything. In need of some Jebidiah.

To the frick'in cold!
I'm off again. Today i spent the day watching some vids and searching for some new shoes. I found some, and they fit as snug as a bug.
Today was very strange. It was one of those times when my Dad brought up the topic of 'paying for my stuff'. We were in the shoe shop, about to buy the shoes i wanted and discussing prices, when Dad just mentioned about me paying for them. And i was like: "ME!? Nah, i'm not going to pay for them..." And i just trailed off not wanting to just say: "That's your job! Pay up, pay up!" So i sort of hinted that i was expecting him to pay....'twas an awkward moment.
Tomorrow i'm heading off up into the hills with Dave and his ma... And it's going to be frick'in freezing! But is all good. I've got a really nice warm jumper and me new walking shoes, so i can go walkabout.
We're going to be away for the Easter weekend and come back monday. So until then, increase da peace.

Current Mood: mellow
Current Music: Norah Jones

Pubby Business
I've just gotten back from me friends pub. And i'm just seranading over last night. It was pretty darn funny...
My Dad and his old chums got absolutely plastered and did some pretty crazy shit. While i happily watched and pissed myself laughing! lol.
But now that i'm back i need to get me head down and do h/work and get meself a job. I need one stat!
Anywayz, better keep on holidaying...Adios!

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: Ella Fitzgerald-"with a song in my heart" (BEST SONG)

The coming two days
Tomorrow i'm off to a family friend's pub in a small country pub with me dad and another family friend.
It's going to be a hilarious night. I can already tell.
So i'm sleeping there tomorrow night and then coming back on wednesday. I dunno what i'm going to do for the rest of the holis...hmmm...
I better do some h/work too.
So that's what i have planned for da next coupla days.

Current Mood: gloomy
Current Music: Reel big fish

Recuperate
Well! I'm still recovering from Saturday night...even though i was the most sobre person in the whole party! lol. It was pretty wild. It was me bros house warming and i got to meet some really cool people. But i was still my anti-social self.....which wasn't too good.
Overall, it was pretty damn funny watching all the people i know get wasted and make fools of themselves...lol.
But i didn't get much sleep at all unfortunately...I kept getting woken up by the bastard sleeping next to me. His arms kept drapeing over me and waking me up. So i got up at 10:30!!!!! And had a shower and a walk around the block...then kicked back with a cuppa and listened to some early morning Louis Armstrong. So i'm still trying to get some more sleep...even after having a good nights sleep last night. Weird.
It's been a full on couple of days....i helped me bros clean up the mess the next day and then played PS2 and watched chopper with the leftover people from the partay.
Then Franz, who's an absolute champion!, gave me a lift home in the tarantial rain. LOL, he's such a crazy driver!
Then today i went out and saw a movie with Max to catch up with da man and have a chat about changing schools.
So now i have just gotten home and feel like veging out and playing some puter games.
A bit of RR needed...

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Diamonds on the inside-Ben Harper

Kicking back
(Ed sighs and swigs at his beer) That's better. I is well relaxed now.
I have just gotten home from visiting Dave. I'm fairly tired and am kicking back typing on the puter to all me fans:)
After running around being as boisterous as possible with Dave and almost taking my eye out with a huge wooden rod, i am knackered....kaput. Stuffed.
And i'm about to get picked up by me dad and taken to a movie. Then i've got to decide on whether i should go to me bros house warming....hmmm..If Dave was going i would go, but now that he can't, bugger it.
I'll just continue kicking back and watching Bruce Lee take on the world! Sounds pretty darn good to me! :)
Well, i feel like a game fix...so i'll toodle off and chop some dudes up with me lightsabre:)
Ciao.

Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: Jack Johnson

Ich bin sehr muder!
Dang i'm tired, but i'm addicted to this thing!!! Aaaahhhh! This always happens with things on the net...it happened with chat and now it's happening with livejournal. But hey! I have nothing better to do....Plus i have a whole holiday to waste!
God i love the sound of rain.....mmmmm...
So, back to more stuff about good ol' me!
I have three older siblings, one over seas at the mo and two living in a house together out in woop woop.
My mum and dad are divorced, and have been since i was about 4 years old...I've lived with me ma ever since.
I've changed schools three times which has ended me up in a school which i really like and enjoy. Which is a well good thing, aiiight?
I am also an Ali G fan from way back...so if the following words offend you, i apologise: Aiiiight, Respek, Bucka!, Dong, Peace out, "can i lick it?", "Coming atcha like Cleopatra!", From da west side, and the list goes on...dang he's a funny man.
Anywayz! that pretty much sums me up...OH! Plus i'm an introvert and a BFG (Big Friendly Giant). :)
Tschuss!

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: The pitter patter of rain.

The first weekend of the holis!
Alrighty then! The weekend is already pretty much planned out. Tomorrow I have to contact Dave and tell him what's happening about tomorrow night. Tomorrow night is me bro's home-warming partay which i have invited Dave to because i thought it could be something he'd be interested in. Plus i need some releif company in case it turns out to be a little intimidating for your truly.
Dad's going to pick me up at 6pm (probably 6:10 knowing him), and we'll head off to check out NED KELLY! da movie aiiight? We'll then proceed to pick up Maria (Dad's partner) and head off to the boys place.
I have to work out how Dave's going to get there....hmmmm...unfortunately Da and meself can't just go and pick him up after the movie:(
I'm not sure if i'm sleeping over at the boys place or not....but on sunday i'm going to the peace rally and shoot some rolls of film hopefully.
Then I'll have to think about contacting some Swinburnians or Viewankers and see what's going down, aiiight?
If Dave can't come tomorrow night i'm going to eat some body...and as everyone knows: (American Accent:)"That just ain't healthy."
Gotta eat now...PEACE OUT.
BTW, i'm enraged with me pop.

Current Mood: enraged
Current Music: Ben Harper

Meet Ed
I feel like writing more now that i've discovered this interesting tool....hmmm
I'll tell you some stuff about meself.
For starters, my name is Ed. I live with me ma who is studying at Uni at the mo while i'm studying at school. So we're struggling to survive with no money coming in and both of us choring hard at studying. This is a slight exaggeration btw. lol.
Will continue this later....Me friend Dave has just arrived in my midst.
Ciao.

Current Mood: hungry
Current Music: Ben Harper

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